It's true that Athelstan felt guilty for sleeping with Dodger in the first place. Both times. The words both comfort and hurt at the same time. "I do not want anyone but you," Athelstan whispers and he knows that it must look otherwise. He feels the urge to pull away from Ragnar but he pushes it to the side. "The first time... the drink aside... I wanted...I just wanted to learn so I could know what to expect and I could...I could please you." he'd been embarrassed when he'd come to early, when he hadn't even been able to help Ragnar get off properly.

"And this time, I thought...I was stupid," he finally assesses.