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[personal profile] pietistic 2018-02-02 04:21 am (UTC)(link)
It's sometime after Dodger's reached out to Athelstan about what Ragnar and Ivar had gotten up to. He's still not sure what to do with the information, though, he's anything but happy about it. He's not made an effort just yet to confront Ragnar and perhaps he wouldn't -- though, the past month is enough to tell that he really shouldn't sit on his feelings.

In any case, he's quietly working away in the kitchen preparing the evening meal. He's mostly running on auto pilot, completely lost in his thoughts.
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[personal profile] pietistic 2018-02-04 04:06 am (UTC)(link)
Athelstan isn't paying enough attention to notice Ragnar before he's pressed against him from behind, sparks flying through Athelstan and his stomach butterflies. In normal circumstances he'd have leaned back into him but despite the urge, the enjoyment of the affection he's shrugging Ragnar away from him, pushing his arm when he attempts to stop him mid chopping vegetables.

"I know she is not home yet," he says quietly and he somewhat wishes she was, it would buy him more time.
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[personal profile] pietistic 2018-02-04 06:17 am (UTC)(link)
Athelstan's hand stilled where he'd resumed chopping some carrots for the dinner he's making. Unbidden the mental image of Dodger's arm appeared in his mind's eye and he set the knife down. He didn't shrug Ragnar away but simply moved away from him. His ear still tingled and he's tempted to give into him but he can't get Dodger out of his head.

"Why did you do that to Dodger?" Athelstan questions him. "Why was Ivar involved?"
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[personal profile] pietistic 2018-02-05 12:34 am (UTC)(link)
"Of course you did not kill him. I already tried that. He's rather difficult to kill," Athelstan exhales, feeling parts humiliated and parts angry and part really wanting to ignore that any of this had ever happened. He doesn't mention that he highly doubts this is the end of it, it rarely is. Cycles of retaliation and punishment continue until everyone is dead.

"Do you think that he learned his lesson, Ragnar?" Athelstan asks before giving the time to talk more. "Or do you think that you've just started a war with him?" Athelstan returns back to preparing the food if only to take out his frustration in some way that was productive. "Sometimes my way, sometimes turning the other cheek is the way that would be better. You did this for you, not me and you should have made sure he knew that."
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[personal profile] pietistic 2018-02-05 01:17 am (UTC)(link)
"He didn't say anything important. He thought I would want to see what I had caused, asked me if I was proud of myself," Athelstan said and there's a rueful smile. "You can't punish someone who doesn't take responsibility for their actions. He sees himself as a victim and maybe he is not completely wrong."

Athelstan doesn't look directly at Ragnar continuing what he is doing but he doesn't push him away or move away from him again. The anger he feels exhausts him and he's not sure it's really about what Ragnar did or about his own inability to do anything.

"Ragnar, I am not sure I even know why you did it, other than a sense of justice that doesn't translate outside of your world. He doesn't understand our ways," he manages to contradict himself in the way he often does when speaking of the Vikings or of the gods, he is both viking and not viking and it's times like these it's clearer the way he is pulled between two worlds.

"He called me your thing, when he was fucking me, that's what made me tell him to get off of me and this... does not make me look less like your thing. I'm sure he thinks that you did this because he hurt one of your toys."
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[personal profile] pietistic 2018-02-05 02:06 am (UTC)(link)
Athelstan is tempted to argue but he couldn't find it in himself to do so. He had done things that were wrong too but perhaps what had happened is his punishment for them after all. He didn't think in terms of crime and punishment very often.

There's a tired sigh at the tapping and he turns to meet Ragnar's gaze. He feels that Ragnar has missed part of his point but he doesn't inform him of such. He knows how he feels about it but he can't help the sense of dread and anxiety that's been weighing on him since he had spoken with Dodger earlier.

"I know," Athelstan murmurs and he drops the knife again, dropping his hand over Ragnar's gently and squeezing for a moment. "But, I think you are failing to see the grey areas of the world in all of this and that is dangerous with him. And I wish that you had not involved Ivar still."

He hadn't pressed Ragnar to answer about Ivar earlier and he still wouldn't. He lets go of his hand then and gets back to work.
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[personal profile] pietistic 2018-02-05 03:15 am (UTC)(link)
Athelstan shakes his head. "It doesn't matter," Athelstan says. He's quiet then as he keeps cooking.

"I just wanted to be able to forget that it had happened and now I do not think that will be possible," Athelstan's voice is barely audible at that point, and it's partially an answer and partially a reason.
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[personal profile] pietistic 2018-02-05 06:08 am (UTC)(link)
"You think that that is the end of it, that is what you're not seeing, Ragnar," Athelstan said, louder though he doesn't try to stop the other from leaving if he keeps going. He has dinner to make and Gyda really could be home at any time.